"Babe, There is NO cure for Morning Sickness!!!" Darren. This is a quote I hear on a daily basis as I try to do something different, or find some remedy online. I'm afraid he's right. There is no cure. I'll tell you some things I have tried and maybe helped a little. But really there is no cure. Just some things that seem to take the edge off of it. I will rate how much it has helped me on a scale of 1-10.
Zofran- 0: this "powerful" drug they use for chemo patients has done absolutely nothing for me. I swear my pills are a placebo. I know a lot of people who Zofran helped, so I think the problem is me. Not the Zofran.
Promethazine- 1: Another "powerful" drug used for people on Chemo. It helps a little bit. But makes me so sleepy and drugged out I can only take it at night. So that doesn't really help
Doxylamine Succinate and Vitamin B6- 3.5: This over-the-counter "unisom" I find more helpful than anything. I also have been taking a liquid vitamin B6. I read you need to take the vitamin B6 about 4 days until it starts working. And I have to take the vitamin B6 on a full stomach right before bed or I will throw up. This combination has helped the most of all the medications.
Ginger- 0: Seriously. It's just gross. Ginger ale, ginger suckers, ginger cookies. I've tried them all. When someone asks me if I have tried ginger, I know they have no idea what real morning sickness is.
Acupuncture- 2: I have tried this with 2 pregnancies. It worked better when I was pregnant with Kyle. I felt amazing the day I got it but nothing the next day. This time it helped the day day I got it also- but nothing the next day. I think your body resets when it goes to sleep or something.
Exercise- 3.5: Have you ever heard the story of the guy who cut off his foot so he cut off his hand to take away the pain? I think this is how exercise works while sick with morning sickness. I can't think of anything that sounds worse than exercising. It just sounds like absolute torture. But strangely enough, while I am actively working out I feel a little less sick than normal. It's like it takes the pain and transfers it. And if you think about it- morning sickness is caused by hormones, right? So what is a great way to create good hormones? Exercise. Feel good hormones really do help me. Especially with the depression. The days I exercise I feel better. But it takes EVERY ounce of willpower to just get my workout clothes on. I feel like I can't. possibly. exercise. Like there is no way I could possibly go running. But I get my workout clothes on, then I go outside and start slowly jogging. It is hard, but I do it. I just start. And I keep going. I always feel like I just ran a marathon or completed one of the hardest things in my life when I finish that 3 miles. It makes me feel like I'm not such a loser just laying on the couch being a terrible mother all day. I reach deep down inside me and do something amazing. It really helps the most with my depression.
Music- 2: I have no music talent and don't have a huge interest in music. But sometimes, when there seems no escape from the sickness, I put on my headphones and put on a song I like and just breath. I try to escape into the music. Music is amazing. It can really take you away. One of my favorites to listen to is "Glorious" by David Archuleta. It really helps for the moment.
Something Fun to Look Forward to- 2.5: This is a must. Darren and I are going to Hawaii in June for a conference for Darren. So I spend a lot of time in front of the computer researching Hawaii. It really helps my depression with morning sickness to have something
to look forward to. Like REALLY helps. I mean, how can you be
depressed when you are researching and planning a trip to Hawaii? It has kept me going on the really bad days.
Massage- 0: I got a massage- hearing that can help. Talk about a waste of money. I couldn't enjoy myself the whole time because I was feeling sick. She was good- it wasn't the massage therapist. But I just couldn't enjoy it.
Priesthood Blessings-: I'm not going to rate this because it's emotional help is beyond measure. I do not believe a priesthood blessing is to be a healing blessing to take away morning sickness. Morning sickness is a part of my calling as a mother. I ask for a blessing for comfort, for strength, for courage. I have had a blessing with each of my pregnancy's when I am in my deepest darkest days. It has given me immense comfort that can not be rated. Maybe someday I'll blog about them.
So there you have it. My list of things worth talking about. Bottom line- Darren knows what he is talking about, There is NO cure for morning sickness.
Friday, February 27, 2015
Thursday, February 26, 2015
Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs
Tonight I feel like I just can hardly take another day of being sick. Yesterday morning I actually felt ok. I ran 3 miles in the morning, then went to Ellie's school to watch her in her Battle of the Books. Then I got a message- which I really didn't enjoy because I felt sick the whole time. Then it hit. Nights are always bad for me. After 5 I'm done. Last night there was Young Women activity that Ellie really wanted me to go to- because she in going into Young Womens this year they had a special Personal Progress night. I felt like I should step it up and be there for her. The leaders went to so much work and the church gym looked amazing. The decorations and snacks were perfectly done. It was straight from Pinterest. I didn't enjoy it all all. I was feeling awful and looking for my throw-up escape route the entire time. I imagined what it would be like if I didn't make it out of the cultural hall and ended up throwing up in front of everyone. Including the bishop. Thankfully Darren came and took my place and I left early. I went home and felt awful. Another one of my "10" nights. I ended up throwing up so bad last night my stomach has been sore all day. I swear I am going to get bed sores from laying down so much. I hate it. I hate being sick!!!
Good health is SOO important. SO IMPORTANT. Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs is true. When you don't have your basic needs; health, water, food, sleep,- it seems that nothing else matters. I don't care about hardly anything except feeling better. I don't care about my house being clean, my kids watching hours of electronics, decorating my house, how I look, showering, going out, clothes, making dinner, money, anything. I still have throw-up in my hair from last night and I don't care. I can't get myself to shower. My kids desperately need new shoes and Paul has 1 pair of pants. I just don't care. I cant take them to the store to buy new clothes. I don't feel happiness. I don't read my scriptures or feel the spirit. I don't feel anything. I feel like a zombie just trying to survive. I guess I would say I feel survival. A need to get through each day. A need to endure. I wonder if I will ever recover. If I will ever feel normal again.
I look at all the normal people in the street, driving kids to school, or at the store and think about how lucky they are. Do they have any idea how nice it is to feel good? Who cares what happens if you feel healthy??? If you have good health you can do anything!! ANYTHING!! I love to work hard and feel a since of accomplishment at the end of they day knowing I put in a good hard days work. I would give anything to feel tired from a good days work. I feel tired from a day of nothing! I feel like I sleep and waste my days away watching TV. Then I tell myself it's not for nothing. It's not a waste of time. It will be worth it. I do pray. I pray all day for help to get through this. Dear God, just help me get through this.
Good health is SOO important. SO IMPORTANT. Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs is true. When you don't have your basic needs; health, water, food, sleep,- it seems that nothing else matters. I don't care about hardly anything except feeling better. I don't care about my house being clean, my kids watching hours of electronics, decorating my house, how I look, showering, going out, clothes, making dinner, money, anything. I still have throw-up in my hair from last night and I don't care. I can't get myself to shower. My kids desperately need new shoes and Paul has 1 pair of pants. I just don't care. I cant take them to the store to buy new clothes. I don't feel happiness. I don't read my scriptures or feel the spirit. I don't feel anything. I feel like a zombie just trying to survive. I guess I would say I feel survival. A need to get through each day. A need to endure. I wonder if I will ever recover. If I will ever feel normal again.
I look at all the normal people in the street, driving kids to school, or at the store and think about how lucky they are. Do they have any idea how nice it is to feel good? Who cares what happens if you feel healthy??? If you have good health you can do anything!! ANYTHING!! I love to work hard and feel a since of accomplishment at the end of they day knowing I put in a good hard days work. I would give anything to feel tired from a good days work. I feel tired from a day of nothing! I feel like I sleep and waste my days away watching TV. Then I tell myself it's not for nothing. It's not a waste of time. It will be worth it. I do pray. I pray all day for help to get through this. Dear God, just help me get through this.
Healthy bodies are such a huge blessing...Don't forget that.
Don't take it for granted nor neglect it!
- Stephanie Nielson
Monday, February 16, 2015
More Movies
Crocodile Dundee: Not as good and funny as I remember from the 80's.
Meet the Mormons: We bought this On-Demand and were able to watch it at our house Sunday night. Honestly, I was disappointed. It was ok, but not great. We started it as a family and one by one everyone got bored and got up and left. I was the only one who watched the whole thing. I felt like they could have made it sooo much more interesting. There are so many fascinating stories out there! The last 2 stories were good. If I weren't Mormon I would have felt like the only thing I learned is that black people can be Mormon bishops. Love the David Archeleta song though!!
A Little bit of Heaven: Supposed to be a romance. Oh please. Just don't. Complete waste of time.
Pride and Prejudice: I got the LONG one from the library. I loved it.
Prince of Persia: Fun Disney movie. It's good.
I have also been watching a lot of HGTV and Food Channel. Watching the food channel is hard because everything they cook makes me drool or want to throw up. And if it sounds really good, I don't have the energy to make it. So I end up craving food for days.
I love HGTV. I watch Fixer Upper- I LOVE that show!! I also like The Caribbean Life. It really makes me want to travel the world. I don't necessarily want to live all over the world, but I do want to travel all over the world.
Meet the Mormons: We bought this On-Demand and were able to watch it at our house Sunday night. Honestly, I was disappointed. It was ok, but not great. We started it as a family and one by one everyone got bored and got up and left. I was the only one who watched the whole thing. I felt like they could have made it sooo much more interesting. There are so many fascinating stories out there! The last 2 stories were good. If I weren't Mormon I would have felt like the only thing I learned is that black people can be Mormon bishops. Love the David Archeleta song though!!
A Little bit of Heaven: Supposed to be a romance. Oh please. Just don't. Complete waste of time.
Pride and Prejudice: I got the LONG one from the library. I loved it.
Prince of Persia: Fun Disney movie. It's good.
I have also been watching a lot of HGTV and Food Channel. Watching the food channel is hard because everything they cook makes me drool or want to throw up. And if it sounds really good, I don't have the energy to make it. So I end up craving food for days.
I love HGTV. I watch Fixer Upper- I LOVE that show!! I also like The Caribbean Life. It really makes me want to travel the world. I don't necessarily want to live all over the world, but I do want to travel all over the world.
New Years Resolutions
New Years resolutions- always a good thing. But I never get really into it because I think setting goals once a year is just not very effective. I am typically setting goals every day, week, and month. Especially with my eating and exercise. We set resolutions as a family for FHE last month. Everything has gone to pot now that I have morning sickness. I am going to rewrite my resolutions to: 1. survive morning sickness. and 2. Grow a brand new wonderful baby
Friday, February 13, 2015
Good Days
Today has been good. Very good. It is our 16 Year Anniversary! I was determined to feel good today- so I got up and went running. The kids didn't have school so it made it easy to leave Gabe home and go with one of my running friends, Ashley. She will pretty much never say no to running, so when I texted her and asked her if she wanted to go running in 5 minutes she said yes! So off we went. I ran 3 miles in under 30 min. It made me feel good! I hope I don't pay for it tomorrow. I want so bad to work out this pregnancy.
Then I went to my ultrasound. Darren got off work early and was able to go with me. What is it with ultrasound techs being grouchy? She wasn't too bad- but I haven't ever had a really happy, excited, ultrasound tech. They are all jaded. I didn't care- I was happy to see my sweet little baby on the screen. ONE sweet little baby that looked like a little gummy bear. I could see her little heart beating. I could see her little stubs that will turn into arms and legs. I love getting my first ultrasound. It makes it seem so real. It shows the reason I have been so sick and miserable. When I see that little baby it makes it ok. I know what that little gummy bear will develop into. It makes me so excited. I pray and pray and pray she or he will develop normal and be healthy and be one of Gods greatest, noblest spirits.
Tonight Darren and I are going to go out to eat. I am so excited to do something other than sit on the couch. And I'm also excited to be with Darren.
Also, today marks my 9th week. I started getting sick at week 5 and should start feeling better at 12, so I am on the downhill. I also had my nasty "10" days, so that is a relief.
I feel half way normal today and it is the best feeling in the world. I may actually make it through this.
Then I went to my ultrasound. Darren got off work early and was able to go with me. What is it with ultrasound techs being grouchy? She wasn't too bad- but I haven't ever had a really happy, excited, ultrasound tech. They are all jaded. I didn't care- I was happy to see my sweet little baby on the screen. ONE sweet little baby that looked like a little gummy bear. I could see her little heart beating. I could see her little stubs that will turn into arms and legs. I love getting my first ultrasound. It makes it seem so real. It shows the reason I have been so sick and miserable. When I see that little baby it makes it ok. I know what that little gummy bear will develop into. It makes me so excited. I pray and pray and pray she or he will develop normal and be healthy and be one of Gods greatest, noblest spirits.
Tonight Darren and I are going to go out to eat. I am so excited to do something other than sit on the couch. And I'm also excited to be with Darren.
Also, today marks my 9th week. I started getting sick at week 5 and should start feeling better at 12, so I am on the downhill. I also had my nasty "10" days, so that is a relief.
I feel half way normal today and it is the best feeling in the world. I may actually make it through this.
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Guessing Game
I am 9 weeks along tomorrow and have an ultrasound. I can't wait. I have a lot of anxiety I am going to have twin boys. Our family has been praying for years to have another little girl. Ellie especially. I would love to have a sweet little girl with dark skin and dark hair. A little girl that looks like me! None of my kids look like me. All my boys are blonde and look like Darren. And Ellie looks like my sister Athena. Anyways, so when I first found out I was pregnant I had a dream I had twin boys! Please no! So when I went to my first Dr. appointment I asked the doctor if we could do an ultrasound early, and he said no. I started crying and said I really wanted to know if I was going to have twins. He stated very calmly I would know soon enough- at my 9 week ultrasound. He must be used to dealing with pregnant crazy ladies. I'm still mad though. And very curios. I had a friend call me the other day and say she had a dream I had twins. Then when we told Gabe I was pregnant, I said, " Momma has a baby in her belly!" and he said, "No!! Two babies!" Oh boy. Honestly, I don't really want twins. Obviously I'll take what I get as I don't get a choice in the matter. And I'll love my kids to the moon and back no matter. But I am certain twins seem like a LOT of work. Like, more than just one newborn. I just can't imagine. And of course there is always so much anxiety that my baby will be healthy. I worry about that too. Anyways, God knows what He is doing. I have faith in Him no matter what. So I'll let you know tomorrow how everything looks.
Bad Days
Sunday was a bad day. BAD. It was hard. So, so hard. It seemed like the minutes crawled by and the day would never come to an end. I am in the thick of it and It's going to be a bad week before it gets better. Sunday my morning sickness, depression and anxiety were almost unbearable. Being in the middle of morning sickness is like a deep dark tunnel that will never end. Monday morning I mustered all the energy of my soul and took Gabe to go running. It was sunny, for the first time in a month. We went about ten and I was able to run a mile and half and walk two. I felt awful the whole time. But I wanted to see if working out would help. I don't know if it did or not. This is the third time I have gone running since I had morning sickness, and am pretty sure it's my last. I wanted so badly to keep running. I want to be the awesome pregnant chick that runs until she goes into labor. But I just literally can not do it. I guess when I hit the bottom it gave me a desire to go. I couldn't go far or long and it really discouraged me- but I at least I went and felt good about that. And it felt good to get out instead of just sitting on the couch all day.
Yesterday was also an awful day. I had a migraine and threw up a lot. I literally felt like I was dying. I rate each of my days how bad I felt and it was a 10. Each pregnancy I have about 2-3 days that are almost unbearable. My "10" days. This week I have had 2 of them. I very distinctly remember each of pregnancy "10" days. I have been dreading these days- and feel relieved to have a couple of them over. It means that my morning sickness will start going downhill.
Yesterday was also an awful day. I had a migraine and threw up a lot. I literally felt like I was dying. I rate each of my days how bad I felt and it was a 10. Each pregnancy I have about 2-3 days that are almost unbearable. My "10" days. This week I have had 2 of them. I very distinctly remember each of pregnancy "10" days. I have been dreading these days- and feel relieved to have a couple of them over. It means that my morning sickness will start going downhill.
Monday, February 9, 2015
Rubiks Cube
I told my kids I would give them $10 if they could solve the Rubiks cube with instructions from the computer. And I would give them $20 if they could solve it all by themselves. Kyle is the first to complete the challenge. This kid can solve the Rubiks cube in about 2 minutes all by himself. Impressive!
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Zombie
I'm still sick and still plugging through each day. I think one of the worst things about morning sickness, besides the sickness itself, it how it destroys all motivation and desires. I don't care about anything. I don't want to do anything except sleep. I don't care about cleaning, laundry, homework, dishes, etc. If there is a pile of dirty tissues and orange peels on the couch- I don't care- I will lay next to it for days without cleaning it up. I don't even care about the fun stuff. I don't care about decorating, or painting, going out to dinner, shopping, or anything fun. It's really, really.... depressing. I am bored and depressed and sick of watching TV, but just can't find the desire to do anything else. One morning in a moment of feeling better I thought maybe I could go do some mending- so I got out my mending box, and then I felt sick and that's as far as that went. The mending box has been sitting in the same spot since. I even have some fun stuff to blog about, but I get to my computer and just sit and stare at the screen in a zombie state. I feel like part of me has died. My personality is gone. Hopefully its comes back.
Monday, February 2, 2015
Movie Critic
I have watched enough movies for the rest of my life. I am sick of TV. I am sick of laying on the couch. But I don't know what else to do. I thought about reading- but I can barely find the desire to turn on the TV remote control let alone turn pages. So I'll keep you updated on what I have watched.
Labor Day: One of the stupidest movies I have ever seen about a convict who escapes from jail and hides in a ladies house and they fall in love. Then he gets caught and spends the next 25 years in jail while she waits in a deep depression. Then they get back together when he gets out of jail and they are old. Don't waste your time
Breakfast At Tiffany's: A classic I have seen the cover a hundred times and figured it was time for me to watch the movie. Almost as stupid as Labor Day. Shocking inappropriate for it's time. I could not believe the stuff in this movie!! They are smoking and drinking the entire movie, he's a prostitute, she practically is too. They go on an adventurous "date" and go to a strip club then go shoplift. And they sleep together. What is going on??? I thought I was safe watching an old movie with Audrey Hepburn in it. All I can see is Satan's early stages of getting into Hollywood. People like this movie??? What a waste of time.
North and South: A 4 hour mini series on Netflix. I loved it. Clean and romantic. It really helped me enjoy the day. I'm not going to tell you about it- watch it for yourself:)
Enchanted April: Another one I've seen the cover a million times and figured it was time to watch. I'm so sick of old movies trying to be "edgy". It was ok, but I was really bothered that one of the husbands was having an affair. Once again, a movie that is old and romantic and you would think would be clean, and although they never showed anything- you know he's having an affair. It's like watching Anne of Green Gables and they throw in a couple having an affair. Totally out of place What's romantic about that? Nothing. The only good parts were the scenery shots of Italy.
Labor Day: One of the stupidest movies I have ever seen about a convict who escapes from jail and hides in a ladies house and they fall in love. Then he gets caught and spends the next 25 years in jail while she waits in a deep depression. Then they get back together when he gets out of jail and they are old. Don't waste your time
Breakfast At Tiffany's: A classic I have seen the cover a hundred times and figured it was time for me to watch the movie. Almost as stupid as Labor Day. Shocking inappropriate for it's time. I could not believe the stuff in this movie!! They are smoking and drinking the entire movie, he's a prostitute, she practically is too. They go on an adventurous "date" and go to a strip club then go shoplift. And they sleep together. What is going on??? I thought I was safe watching an old movie with Audrey Hepburn in it. All I can see is Satan's early stages of getting into Hollywood. People like this movie??? What a waste of time.
North and South: A 4 hour mini series on Netflix. I loved it. Clean and romantic. It really helped me enjoy the day. I'm not going to tell you about it- watch it for yourself:)
Enchanted April: Another one I've seen the cover a million times and figured it was time to watch. I'm so sick of old movies trying to be "edgy". It was ok, but I was really bothered that one of the husbands was having an affair. Once again, a movie that is old and romantic and you would think would be clean, and although they never showed anything- you know he's having an affair. It's like watching Anne of Green Gables and they throw in a couple having an affair. Totally out of place What's romantic about that? Nothing. The only good parts were the scenery shots of Italy.
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