Zombie

I'm still sick and still plugging through each day.  I think one of the worst things about morning sickness, besides the sickness itself, it how it destroys all motivation and desires.  I don't care about anything.  I don't want to do anything except sleep.  I don't care about cleaning, laundry, homework, dishes, etc.  If there is a pile of dirty tissues and orange peels on the couch- I don't care- I will lay next to it for days without cleaning it up.   I don't even care about the fun stuff.  I don't care about decorating, or painting, going out to dinner, shopping, or anything fun.  It's really, really.... depressing. I am bored and depressed and sick of watching TV, but just can't find the desire to do anything else.  One morning in a moment of feeling better I thought maybe I could go do some mending- so I got out my mending box, and then I felt sick and that's as far as that went.  The mending box has been sitting in the same spot since.   I even have some fun stuff to blog about, but I get to my computer and just sit and stare at the screen in a zombie state. I feel like part of me has died.  My personality is gone. Hopefully its comes back.